Hello Womankind, My name is Michael and I am looking for specific women from "My Tribe". I am pursuing a relationship/partnership/friendship because for the first time in my life I am ready to be in a relationship. I eschewed traditional relationships for 10 years starting in my mid-thirties. I did this on purpose as I did not love myself and therefore could not love another. In fact I felt so unworthy of love if someone showed me any I became angry towards them lost respect. Being given up for adoption was the root of this destructive plant. I thought I had put this topic to bed with logic and reason. Turns out the little boy in me that cries out for his mom does not understand logic and reason. I had to excise him with the brutality and finality of an Exorcism. At heart I am an extroverted loaner who does not need the validation of others. I must have time away from in order to see clearly . I use this alone time to wage war on my worst enemy... my Ego. The only battle in life that matters is the internal battle. There are no external enemies. More later... My ego is the cause of most of my pain and woe. No external enemy can compete. Fight the ego first and the external enemy has nothing to engage with and will fade away. I doubt anyone reads these things so thank you if you did. If you liked what you read take a chance and reach out. You have nothing to loose.

My Ideal Person Other than being partial to brunette hair I like a pretty woman that's sexy over beautiful woman that's not. Sexy cant be faked, it comes from within and I find it intoxicating.

This time around I'm not letting preconceived notions get in the way of what my ideal person will be. Spending the time and putting in the effort to improve myself has increased the value of the women I now attract. Not forcing things and going with the flow has made for a much more relaxed dating atmosphere.

OK Ideal Person. Show yourself so we can start moving forward towards parity with our Super Egos so we can have a relationship vthat is on purpose and uplifting.