From the boy to the man
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Posted:Sep 24, 2008 7:58 pm
Last Updated:May 25, 2024 3:59 am
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I have come to acknowledge the boy that i did come from, he is my center. When i am sad i go to him for strength, determination, and happiness. He didnt ever have a care in the world, dispite growing up alone. Teaching himself how to make friends, beat video games, navigate through woodland terrain, and do his homework was all this did. I grew up cooking for myself, and when i was in third grade i became the middle , by 4th i was raising my little brother.
Why do i go to this for inspiration and joy?
He found joy in everything he did, if he made macaroni and cheese, it was better than any. If he found a tarantula it was far cooler than any spider in existence. When he was home alone during the storm is the only time he would cry, he didnt seek out help and now i question why?
Have i always tried to be bigger, better, and stronger?
At night sometimes i can feel myself shrink beneath my covers, to the size i used to be, a with a smile on his face, that messed up grin. Ear to ear is what it was, anytime of day, playing soccer, or running away. I search for the answers now from this boy, how do you fill your life with such joy?
Not a care in the world is how he lives, bounding leaping, all is his. Where is he now, when i need him most, is he inside, or is he a ghost?
I feel the inside me
he is my laughter and joy
a hope for a better tomorrow
i am that boy
still not fully grown
still not aware
i am a so i will not dispair
i will run free and jump with pride
my life is intact
and i at least try
i may have some problems, so do we all
i may not be stable i often trip and fall
but i get back up and leap and bound
because i am that and send love all around
Morale: connect with the you were or that you have now, you will never know what they can teach you about yourself.
quote of the day: "optimism is bliss"
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why business "casual"
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Posted:Sep 23, 2008 12:24 pm
Last Updated:May 25, 2024 3:59 am
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For interviews/appointments i always dress "business casual"
-What is the meaning of business casual, its not really "casual", i think of it as me looking better than you and feeling far less comfortable. And as far as business "uncasual" you have no chance of looking as good or as mature as me lol. I get the eye from weird ass people, and look 30 which is just odd, i have had multiple people ask me if my older brother is my younger, but back to the point.
Casual- (jim's definition) an appearance or act that symbolizes that you are comfortable with whatever you are doing/referring to.
Business Casual- trying to look good in front of boss's/potential customers, takes a long while to perfect the look.
Business- Starched pressed professional, but(my opinion) in no way comfortable, most of the time borrriiinnggg, for a "professional" look.
Why are these the definitions i associated with these "styles?"
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me d yuh
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Posted:Sep 21, 2008 3:55 pm
Last Updated:May 25, 2024 3:59 am
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i hate any form of media, what does it do for you? inform you on current events? today 79 year old senator blah blah died from a narrow urethrea, woop i de doo bazzle, he will be missed... and in other news physicists have discovere... wait breaking coverage on the elections, it turns out mccain once had sex with a 17 year old girl, she was this cute blonde_ cut to black and white photo of some high school yearbook, and she was 17, only 17, McCain at the time was a senior, but that doesnt dismiss the fact that he supports abuse, even though the sex was consentual.
And then there is advertising, it seems any advertising is for something you dont need, the faster newer than your hp notebook with 28 gigs of ram and rom, a bizillion gigs of hard drive space, and its only 1 mm thick, and very affordably priced to fit any budget; Cars/trucks/suvs this vehicle has a fuel guzzling 7.0L V-60 with paddle shift so you can safely TEXT WHILE DRIVING, has 8000 ft.lbs of torque and will tow over 1 million sq ft. of the densest material known to man; then food- come to taco bell for the fresca menu, with everything under ten grams of fat(we neglect to mention they are way over priced and you will need to eat 20 to get full), and thats all advertising is, jerrod telling you he lost weight so you can too.
Lesson of this: QUIT WATCHING TV AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE
Quote of the day: "It's alright ronnie i was a little wasted my own self"
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take what life throws atcha... one swing at a time
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Posted:Sep 20, 2008 9:14 am
Last Updated:Nov 12, 2008 4:42 am
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I may be young... hell, a in most peoples eyes, but throughout my life i have made more mistakes than most people do in their entire life. All the shit i have got myself into just made me the person i am on this great day; I may be a nerd, but i have more confidence than most nerds ever get. May have done more drugs than janis, but just gave me a better vantage point than all of you. I may not have learned much in school, but i can do logarithms, differentiate equations, and find the area under a curved line. I may not have that many friends, but the ones that are still here i would trust with my life, and thats all i can ask for.
So take everyday as its the best, the most important, because you never know when you might get hit by a car(been hit by 2!), struck by lightning, or just drop down from cardiac arrest.
Make the best of any situation, even if you get blindsided by a fist, well, at least i have better perephrials now.
Don't ever brag about what you have done, nobody likes that asshole who has done everything. I have done a lot, watched space shuttles launch, seen rome, that 100 shot, jumped from a 50 foot tree into 7 foot water, broken my arm 2x, my leg once, i have scars on my head from when i was one, adventurous youth, been bit by a copperhead, seen some of the greatest performers of my time, and probably yours... but will i talk like i am the who has done it all, no, be humbled by your adventures. Never talk down on someone, because your future may lead to them talking down to you.
Live in the moment, but think of that ever present future.... get caught up in that moment that is the greatest thing on earth. It might be the last time you see it, so keep it in your mind for as long as you can but look ahead to what is in your future.
quote of the day: "how many pots have you smoked?"
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thoughts
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Posted:Sep 16, 2008 2:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 17, 2008 3:03 pm
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so today a crapped in the pool i was going to swim in, about 5 minutes before i got there, great timing you little bastard, but at an olympic sized pool, what does the owner do if something like that happens? do you take all the water out or just cycle it through the chlorine once more, because if someone gets sick, human feces has more chemicals in it and harmful bacteria than hgh grown chicken, what do you think they do?
So, i have been hired at a couple of places in the past few days, i was thinkin about taking the job that is closer and pays more, but then again, the second job pays a dollar less per hour, but plus tips, do i want to be a parts distrubutor or a waiter?
I filled out OMB form 306, and it is an assload of monotany.... why does the government need to know the places i have lived in the past 7 years? Why my credit history? And my Health info? i told you i have no physical disabilities, i wear glasses, why do you need to know if i have an std, its none of your business if i do, isnt that in the privacy act of 1950 whenever? What if i have to have a colostomy bag, should i have to put up with the embarrassment of some creepy government worker knowing this and laughing at me behind closed doors? Judgement comes through the knowledge of someones acts, so why is the federal government judging me so i can get on an American post in another country? Why do they need to know my Step-Father?
Quote of the day: " The pool is closed, some little pooped in it and i get to go home early!"
so right, this girl is ecstatic, she gets to go home early, later she tells us she had to clean it up, we also laugh at the thought that she pooped in the pool to go home early lol
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what is a friend
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Posted:Sep 12, 2008 6:38 pm
Last Updated:Sep 17, 2008 1:07 pm
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it leaves me sore,
i dont really know anymore
makes me feel poor
is it someone you adore
someone you knew since four
someone who sees your core
i am a lie
alone im meant to die
not yet a man, still a boy
i am vane, but i will try
am i just some mans toy
maybe i drank too much
if i am just into the butch
i guess things go as such
i will be the man thats out of touch
reality is a lie
something i used to confide
now i lie, try sigh, and die, but hide these things deep inside
my hope may be everlasting
but by trial and error things keep passing
time friends life and past
it all seems like a waste of my mast
you see i am a ship who tries to sail
i try and i try but continue to fail
not a man but a wind like a gale
always an evil blowing pale
no quote today... think i will fade away
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who do you love?
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Posted:Sep 12, 2008 3:57 am
Last Updated:Sep 17, 2008 1:14 pm
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it seems in recent times, the ones i love the most i leave and hurt the worst, i say it is for the best, to grow and get away from the life i have lived, sex and drugs, but is it, would i have grown more and for the best if i stayed and found a catalyst to help me find sobriety? i dont know, but now things back where i was are falling apart, friends are getting hurt and thrown out in the rain, people are taking offense and thinking of who to blame, who is at fault, am i, could i have left them with someone to replace me, sell drugs and someone who gives them the time of day, no, i am a friend not jesus, i cant be the miracle worker, and if i am getting off of the dope, why should i perpetuate the cycle, was it for the best, i hope so... cuz if not i am going back to a world full of criminals, loneliness, and sadness
am i inhumane
i never thought that i was the one who was vane
i think of the world just as a game
still a boy am i to blame
i try to hold my head up high
and always seem to question why
i burned the bridges
now i lie in the rubble and debris with those i used to be
did i destroy what i did create
a monster pounding at the gate
those that i did forsake
left pouting in my wake
in my quest for glory
because i am vane in this story
i always wanted to be the best
and took for granted all the rest
they were all people i did destroy
for my game my little ploy
life is not to be taken lightly
for everyone deserves their chance
before we go to our final dance
should i feel sorrow
creating a world worse tomorrow
quote: 'The question is not how far. The question is do you possess the constitution... the depth of faith to go as far as is necessary.'
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more randomness
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Posted:Sep 6, 2008 1:42 pm
Last Updated:Nov 12, 2008 4:44 am
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is this world left up to chance
when will be my final dance
predetermined destiny or fate
wouldnt that just be great
that is the world that i hate
it is your choices that you make
that put you in your place
these scars make up your face
what do you hide behind your eyes
do you lie and make a disguese
or are you stronger than i and show the world your true side?
who is the man that i fear
does he live with me in the mirror
is he a boy or a queer
does he disire to disappear
im that boy man and queer
i hide my true nature from this world so near
but i love life and would not disappear
if i could i would show all the boy you love
and the world would see this man you lust
if only i could find the world i trust
i love to give head
can i share your bed
my name is fred
want to see my bedrock
i have a smooth cock
it will put you in shock
hope you had a good time trippin reality on screen
quote o the day: "its up on a higher plane of badassness!"
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BLAH! HAH! RAH! AND ZAH!
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Posted:Sep 4, 2008 3:46 pm
Last Updated:Nov 19, 2008 7:24 am
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my english vocab is so immense
that learning deutsch makes me feel dense
it fills me with rage and i get tense
i screw up and think the germans take offense
my words and phrases make no sense
i buy something and pay with pence
i build these walls in my mind creating a fence
vas is das they say
they always want me to go away
i drink to much and then i pay
i purge my system and sleep the next day
but i guess that is just the price i pay
to live for free and get away
i am my brothers bane
i cause him grief and pain
i waste his time and feel his disdain
i make his life dreary like the rain
why am i here
is it because of fear
i dont want to grow old
or take the responsibility of being a "man"
if he only knew i was his biggest fan
i feel like a thief
it fills me with grief
i dont pity myself
i clean cook im like an elf
i dont want to be old collecting dust on a shelf
i am a fool b/c i didnt go back to school
i am the tool who thinks he rules
and i will grow old like the mules
my name is gollum
i am boring like a column
i watch and follow
inside i am just hollow
i have no emotion
unlike the ocean
i age with time
just like my rhyme
i am filled with hate
unlike the great
i continue to tempt fate
as i sit and wait
i am the worlds glue
i have no hue
just a paste
no fuckin taste
a big pile of waste
i hold things together
no matter the weather
rain shine tsunami or snow
i always have no place to go
i stay stuck to you
and i have no clue
your not trippin reality on screen
quote of the day: "ill slap your monkey ass..... did i stutter nother fucker?"
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bored... thoughts on leaving
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Posted:Aug 19, 2008 12:55 pm
Last Updated:Sep 12, 2008 11:48 am
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Im going to flee
travel to be free
where will i go
who will i know
i guess ill just have to see
The trip will be long
turned into a song
by a man who knows not
the demons ive fought
the joints i have passed
or bowls i have cached
isnt life just sweet
when put on repeat
the man in your head
cant remember what was said
he had an epiphany
or did he just see tiffany
it was god he says
or was it fez
cant remember what was said
this man is now brain dead
tools fools spacepools... trippin on reality on screen..............
leave you with my amazing quote today...... "suspense is the essence of life"
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