Obtuse
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Posted:Jan 8, 2009 2:05 pm
Last Updated:Jul 19, 2012 10:18 pm
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Mathematical meaning-greater than 90 deg.
Literary meaning- being stupid
either one of these things leave me with a bad taste in my mouth. Someone being ignorant makes me want to reach out and stab them lol. nah, but i don't like the word obtuse, its like saying thou art, instead of you are... if I wanted you to be politically correct i wouldn't talk to you with a stupid southern draw, so don't use stupid words like obtuse, and by the way your obtuse for using the word yourself.
The mathematical meaning- I dont like obtuse or acute triangles, to me they have to be equilateral, or they just ain't right.
It's the way I was born
just like corn
there you've been warned
talk to me like that again and feel my scorn.
We mourn the dead
we look back at when they had a head
they are now deceased and gone
their memory will live on
but thats the best it can be
you must live unattached and free
or suffer the anguish and pain
of the loss, so refrain.
I avoid connection(relationships) for the fear of loss. If you grow to close to someone and then lose them(someway or another). I also have a fear of growing old and alone. I am distraught. I would make a horrible husband anyway, I haven't done well at much so far, so what can be expected.
The man who fights for he knows naught.
Lives for what?
Dieing inside is all he will be.
Sadness is what he sees.
Will it end, will his will bend?
It seems the rope will break and his soul shatter
despite all he would do and that is the matter.
Im my own vice
I shudder at the thought of a fight
I care for nothing
and stare into space
not knowing my place
a life misunderstood
or a life abused
its not what should be
because i live life solely for me.
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the first resolution
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Posted:Jan 6, 2009 7:49 am
Last Updated:Dec 17, 2013 7:24 pm
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So I didnt make a resolution this year... well i did, but already failed. Who can honestly go a year with out masturbating, i mean come on... unless you are constantly in the beginning of a relationship where you get constant sex all year around, its impossible.
Resolutions are peoples way of saying they are gonna do something that they couldn't do under other circumstances(knock off lent). It's almost human flaw that we will inevitably fail. Yes, some people succeed, but in what miniscule things or things that involve money- I'm not talking about stopping eating more than 3 cookies or buying that jet ski. What I speak of here is things that will enhance your life... quitting smoking, not gambling, taking a mile walk everyday.... things that will help you not only mentally but physically. Kicking addictions comes to mind first, and second would be gaining some sort of physical shape.
So after failing my first attempt(it wasn't meant to be.) I have decided to work out 3x per week and slowly cut back on my smoking habit, two things that will help my life drastically.
I can't help but look in the mirror
what i see couldn't be clearer
a boy lost in a dream
one that it seems
he understands, cares or realizes
that who he is is what he dispises
he needs to grow
and begin to show
inner beauty and true color
and finally find a significant other
Helpless weak lonely and scared
has nothing but the memories shared
a boy not yet a man
trying to get money to fill the can
for what he does not yet know
this is the step that will show
how far his sight will go
his life is like dough
not yet molded and the yeast needs to grow
but when he does he will be shared and loved
and the hand will fit perfectly in the glove
Quote o' the day: " Check out the gym!"
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ford
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Posted:Jan 4, 2009 8:36 am
Last Updated:Jan 6, 2009 4:10 pm
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the first phrase that comes to mind is:
Found On Road Dead, second is First On Race Day.
Anyway, I have been looking over cars, not to buy one, just my mind wanders farther than iwojima is from me. At times I think of myself, other times I rummage through space and time.
On to today.
I drive a ford, its a beast, V8, only problem 8-10 mpg. I love the thing to death, all wheel drive, its what an SUV is good for, cargo space and the capability to go off road. So i have no problems with their SUVs.
Now we go to their sports CAR, not utility vehicle.....
Over great lengths of time, chevy and ford have had unparalleled success with their lines of sports cars- the camaro and mustang respectively. Over this period of time though, the camaro has out-performed the mustang year after year. With the retirement in 2001/2? the mustang had no competition in the american market and was thus the uncrowned "king" of car-lots.
Thus with recent years ford has had nothing to compete with and has had shameful standards for the mustang... which is not saying much, they flop in most areas when push comes to shove.
The big problem with the mustang is that Ford is trying to make a "practical" sports car. Why are sports cars designed: to put speed in the hands of the common man. If someone wants to break the speed of sound, should have become a pilot, here we are not talking about practical things, we are simply talking about: I wanna go fast!
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christmas
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Posted:Dec 24, 2008 9:09 am
Last Updated:Dec 29, 2008 12:00 pm
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the time of year i seem to ignore
people don't remember the meaning anymore
who do we celebrate this holiday for?
it's now about presents and socks
getting deals and looking inside a box
looking for riches or fort knox
fueled by greed
never getting what we need
just what we want
Becoming a being thats impure and gaudy
Pretty but naughty
a sight to be seen
if you lived in the past
a shame to those that will come and last
this evil we harbor in our souls
is the thing that makes our childrens molds.
not knowing of life without money
to them is something that seems funny
your greed fuels there need for more.
but it is not that which we should focus
let us jump for joy
let us love eachother
and not hate another
its a time when all should rejoice
and sing at the top of there lungs
for only once a year can peace be brought
to a world that knows not.
Ho Ho Ho Merry Christmas! and a very happy new year.
Thought of the day: I hate having to say "happy holidays" no offense to jews, africans, non-denomonational or anyone else, but i was raised saying merry christmas. and i will always say that.
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elanor
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Posted:Dec 19, 2008 2:13 pm
Last Updated:Feb 16, 2019 3:20 pm
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remorse hides her beautiful face
as she goes about life disgraced
she's worried and sick
every second goes tick tick tick
She's gripped with fear
every passing year
anguish sheds another tear
feeling the end coming near
her demons begin to appear
she cries out
just another meaningless shout
all alone she will pout
loneliness is all her life is about.
all the lonely people where do they all come from
all the lonely people where do they all belong
i dont know, minds wander
time fades
gray matter appears
days pass and then years
my time runs thin
as new life begins
the cycle comes round again
and time becomes anew
wrote the first one in a dismal state at work
and just mind wandering down below here.
quote of the day: "I remembered! doh! I forgot again!" otherwise I like " Its just inexplicable, far beyond imagination."
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hmmm
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Posted:Dec 16, 2008 3:54 pm
Last Updated:Dec 18, 2008 5:58 am
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as my imagination fades
i count endless days
this life is but a hedge maze
one way in one way out
through it mindless clout
you seek your answer in between
when all you want can be seen
from up above
ahead and behind
it seems we always walk around blind
gentle and kind
strong and wise
someone i trust
a person i must
better than me
if we could only be free
then you would see
what could be
only in our minds
can this be true
for any color is merely a hue
you are everything i desire
inside you started a fire
now ahead is a bright future
for this soul with a suture
its torn and broken
but with the words you've spoken
like a bandage for the heart
your mending is like art
if you had only been here at the start
Learning to get along without you
will be like putting together a puzzle with no hue
matching pieces can come together
but will they survive the weather
memories feelings and gifts like you
make this life a dream come true
its hard to think things through
knowing i can't be with you.
Morale: Make the best of all situations, time is worth far more than any money offered, and if you find someone great to share it with, hold on for the bumpy ride.
Quote o the day: "Who throws a shoe man, honestly?"
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finite wisdom
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Posted:Dec 13, 2008 3:00 pm
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2008 3:32 pm
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questioning life
this strife
is it a test
who will be best
is it a task
whose completed it
or is it a gift
and to do what with
time flies when your happy
times are slow when your sad
you dont remember when your mad
but this river flows ever so fast
you look back and it looks like a blast
first outta the womb, now your lookin at your tomb
this gloom hangs over my head
it leaves me when i go to bed
all day is a worry
sometimes hits me as i eat curry
but lifes a flurry and a task
it comes round full circle
and is filled with laughs
tears and sorrow
love and tomorrow
but don't fret anymore,
you know tomorrow you can still walk out that door
I live life to the fullest extent
never looking back to regret
decisions made never weighing down my past
tomorrows anew
and today was a blast
yesterday sucked and thats that
my life may be a tattered mess
but at least im not in distress
look ahead, feel good
and someday you'll be back in that place you stood
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stuff and things
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Posted:Dec 10, 2008 2:44 am
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2008 5:16 am
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If I ever get out of this shell I call a life
I will use my knowledge as a device
to strengthen myself, and maybe a wife
Maybe i will help all the others
like me with no mothers
teach them some things they need shown
like how to start up and how to let go
of memories and pain
anger and disdain
If I could get out of my head entirely
It would be like climbing out of the pages of a book
and into your mind, like intelligent design
If i could find a way to teach you all
I could strengthen you and also guide your fall
ascending the mountain is so hard
falling is worse when you reach the guard
but there is a way to come back
hold true and learn what you lack
stay tough and you can't fail
use your mind and you will always prevail
Always wonder if there is fate
if so, its like a perpetual stalemate
never gaining never losing
no matter how much schmoosing(kissing ass)
if so, why do some gain fame and power
more and more money by the hour
was it meant to be like this
money for some is like bliss
others like me could care less
living's enough for me
seeing things just to be seen
i guess thats all life for me will mean
but i gotta go to work.
stay calm ya jerk.
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cats in the cradle
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Posted:Dec 8, 2008 12:48 pm
Last Updated:Dec 13, 2008 2:26 pm
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Everyday I am always thinking. Sometimes I think of very stupid things, sometimes my imagination wanders, and sometimes I think about my life.
Yesterday a thought crawled through my brain. Here goes.
So ever since I was young I haven't had much of a male role model. I learned everything about being a man from my older brother, and it turns out at the time he wasn't the person i should have been learning anything from. So I am bisexual now, perhaps my love of the male comes from the lack of an adequate father figure, or just the love of the male figure in general.
Anyways I was thinking about it, and came up with these things that i have never had growing up:
1. this weird form of protection/security that a father gives.(it puzzles me.) I grew up with a single mom, constantly working, so there wasn't anyone there to watch over me. So I was never watched over by anyone but my brother, i got beat up a lot. Now that I am older and "indestructible" I dont understand why i still have this longing for a weird form of protection or security. I can fend for myself and its just a puzzling thought.
2. Approval of some sort. The only "approval" I ever got from a father figure was a teachers, coaches, and friends parent's pat on the back, not a dad taking me in and saying something "inspiring". I guess no one ever lives those picture perfect movie lives; but they have at least someone cheering them on, waiting to pick them up after a loss, or something in general. Like I said mom worked a lot, so she missed out on that stuff too.
It puzzles me, I have this sense of deja-vu while dreaming quite often anymore where its storming and I am at home alone. I shrink in my bed to the size of a 7 year old and clutch at anything I can to save me from this storm that is striking fear at my nerves, and find nothing. I wake up in the fetal position, with nothing around me in my bed, and all I really want to do is yell.
Morale: I dont know, i hope thats why your still reading. I think i just need a hug lol. the last resort is therapy/counseling.
Quote: "I speak five languages: english, german, chinese, japanese, and phillipeno. You speak japanese? Yeah, Kawasaki, Jujitsu, Sony, Toshiba."
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what do women want?
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Posted:Dec 6, 2008 4:07 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:27 pm
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So the mystery of the female goes without saying. Men have tried to conquer the grail an infinite amount of times without success, and a finite amount successfully. There are methods for gettin in her pants, methods for finding which women is easiest, and others for many other things i have no idea about. what do you "people"(i am grouping you all) really want from a man? is it just in the pants? the mind, financial security, protection, or a combination?
The human mind is far superior to anything ever constructed by any man or men. we live, no other thing supercedes this power. cognitive behavior is part of living, love is part of life, adaptation to enviroments, the body, soul and mind are more powerful than anything in existence. I could elaborate on this, but none is necessary.
So why is it so confounded hard to find a soul mate, or just someone who cares enough and wants to be with you enough that they would walk any path to get to you?
Love endures all it is said, in todays society 1 in probably 3 marriages(bondings of love) ends in divorce.
I think the logical conclusion/consensus would be that these people were never really in love. Mesmerized by a sense of just wanting to bond with someone, find a being that they can share life with.
It is tragic that the institution of marriage is no longer sacred. Hundreds of people elope daily, and those marriages are backed by our government. You can get an official document stating that you can marry to people online, hell in 6th grade me and my friends did it. You can get a license saying you are an ordained minister by some congregations.
I guess what i am picking at is how far the institution of marriage has come in the past 10 years. Gays now want that, is it so they can feel equal? I could truely care less. People in general have destroyed the institution of marriage from what it once was, so why care if other people desanctify it more. You have done your damage, now hand the bat to a new crew.
I know naught of love, marriage or things of this nature, but as i growing up i know of the pain of a divorce. It destroys lives, makes that fire inside a meer spark, a plain killjoy.
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KUNG FU PANDA KICKED ASS!
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Posted:Dec 5, 2008 1:06 pm
Last Updated:Dec 6, 2008 3:03 pm
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tomorrow is a day of mystery
yesterday flew by and is now history
today is dimming and the sun is setting
and i will go to bed forgetting
problems and cares worries and stares
from people that think they're better than who
a boy that is his own crew
its becoming an epidemic
judging is problematic and wrong
like a guy in a thong
something i dont want to see but have to live with
your not right because your rich
maybe i grew up in a ditch
pulling my way out, but still attached to the hitch
stuck in a rut
still trying to pull through
why should i think about you
and your thoughts and your troubles
your worries your cares
no i wont keep you in my prayers
because god is the only judge
so dont go out and hold a grudge
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Whats this life for?
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Posted:Nov 27, 2008 5:14 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:27 pm
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This life is more and more like a practical joke
every day goes by and i think its just a hoax
a figment of my imagination so to speak
i can never find whom i truely seek
maybe im just a stupid freak
they're in my dreams and in my head
but i can never find them lying in my bed
i search far and wide
but they just dwell deep inside
My mind keeps racing
when it should be pacing
i am just a
waiting for my final bid
i have so much time
and all i do is sit and rhyme
no adventure no risk
wasting time tisk tisk tisk
My life is a bore
i am lonely and poor
i probably even snore
i never look behind the door
i just follow the lead and ignore
worry and pain leaves me sore
life o life what are you for?
Morale: sitting online blogging is wasting my precious youth, i will probably continue it, and learn nothing, but i am going to try and get out and be a crazy adventurer. I hope i do, and thanks to all of you.
I dont think i will ever find who i am looking for, and slowly i will just fall in love with myself and become a douche.
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tuesday's gone
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Posted:Nov 26, 2008 1:00 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:27 pm
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but tomorrow remains
hold steadfast and dont complain
another day another dollar
you've got a shirt around your collar
times are tough
but we'll make it through
life is rough
hasnt anyone told you?
Governments will always lie
and for that people will die
its been a nasty infection
to my recollection
this time of ages
whilst the war wages
on and on
empires always fall
like convicts walking down that hall
Too young to know
too old to care
is there a time when we are completely aware?
morale: i dont think there is one, no thesis, i dont care, life goes on as i am unaware.
Tomorrow can be heaven,
cuz yesterday was hell,
tomorrow be thankful cuz everything is swell
my new favorite quote lol: "check out my new blog, i shall be a stone in time for this one, gov. official speech writin 101"
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