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closet freak
 
the average life of a single mom in almost middle class america, with savory tidbits of the exploits & fantasies of a pierced, cock swallowing, clit sucking, closet freak. did i sit next to you at last weeks ballgame?
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a regular in my playtime rolodex!
Posted:Jun 17, 2006 10:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2009 3:12 pm
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its about time for a good suck story don't you think? ive spent entirely too long bitching about my knee, life & all the he said she said bullshit.......(good song , btw)
so i think i'll write about a "regular" in my playtime thoughts.......

i have this friend, that has this friend... yeah its one of those... anyway she's been wanting to set me up with him for a while, & i finally agree. she says he breeds & trains saddle horses, looks like a young sam elliot ( a "Mask" & "Roadhouse" cross with no limp), plays pool, & has a Harley. ( when i dream, i dream BIG) i ride with my friend & her boyfriend to asheville to meet him at the mello mushroom. never been there but ive heard great things about it. were seated on the patio when he purrs up on his bike.well cared for, not too flashy, not too loud, just enough rumble to vibrate my chair & everything on it! as he swings one long leg off, he flashes us a smile. he makes his way through the crowd, self assured, but not cocky. when he approaches the table, he heads straight for me, extending a hand with a smile, "i'm Michael, & you must be chanda" as he takes my hand, it is shaking.
dinner flew by, great conversation, great food, & when it was time to go, Michael offers to take me home. of course, since i rarely get a chance to ride a vibrator with that kind of power, i jumped at the chance! we glided through the night, like velvet in moonlight. he asked if he could show me a favorite spot on the way home, & i agreed. my imagination was running wild, stirred on by the thunder underneath me & the feel of his warm back & toned hips between my legs. i snuggled up closer, rubbing my clit against the back of his chaps. the vibration on kitty's bling nearly driving me insane! he pulls onto the parkway, and we are alone on the road. we drive for several miles with out seeing a soul. his hand slips back to caress my thigh, & all i can do is grip him tighter. we wind our way through the night, until he finds the spot he likes. we pull into a small picnic area, just a few tables, & when we get off the bike, he pulls a blanket from the saddlebag. taking my hand he heads for the trees. he leads me down a narrow track, something you'd have to know to see in daylight, & suddenly we break from the trees near a sheer drop off, with a huge valley below, just a few lights twinkling, & a huge full moon glowing down on us.(did i ever tell you what a full moon does to me? anyway...)

he spreads the blanket, & reaches into his jacket pocket & brings out a flask of spiced rum & offers it to me. as i sip the liquid warmth, another warmth is spreading. when i hand him the flask, our eyes meet, & suddenly i know i am about to be HAD. he leans forward slowly, just brushing my lips with his, then teasing my lips with his tongue, then lightly around to my neck, flickering touch of wet warmth, tickle of breath, his fingers tracing up my arm. his other hand is entwined in the back of my hair, gently shaping a fist, holding firmly but not cruel. his fingers find my nipple, then the ring, he draws back to look into my eyes as he gives the ring a little tug, & i gasp, my body twitching.he gives me an evil little grin, then pulls my head back slowly, until i am off balance,leaning on his arm, my head toward the valley below, & all i can see is the stars & moon. my arm grips his, the other flailing to find solid ground. instead he takes my wrist, & adds it to the grip in my hair. now i am helpless, my head buried in his chest, moaning, whimpering helplessly. as his hand slides up my skirt, past my garter,his fingertips barely brushing my lips, his tongue flickering along my neck. as he slowly slides in one finger i feel his teeth on my neck, holding firmly as he withdraws to tease my already swollen throbbing clit. he slides in 2 fingers then 3, all the while holding onto my neck in his teeth. then he bows by back, brings my face to his his eyes on mine as he finds that sweet spot deep inside stroking the heat building, searing tension in my belly i am whimpering moaning wriggling wild eyes begging for release he holds me firm & uncompromising watching my face, i bite at the leather still covering his chest, my hips bucking against him drawing him deeper my back arching, arms spread wide surrender he leans in close to my neck and whispers ..... now....... i am exploding searing flash release inside me his fingers drawing me onward, moaning, eyes rolled up, heaving gasping squeals clit throbbing almost painful thighs clamped around his hand ...........

as i begin to return, i realize i am cradled against his chest. he is stroking my hair. he looks down at me & smiles & says
"and that was only the opening act"

you'll have to wait till next time for the rest of the story ... ms. chanda has an itch to scratch.

BTW just so everybody knows- i have not ever & will not ever ride in or on anything to anywhere with anyone on the first date. ever. but this is the joy of fantasies. i can do things i wouldent do in the real world.
BTW#2 in this particular fantasy i have a jennifer tilly thing goin on.
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losing a friend
Posted:Jun 16, 2006 8:19 pm
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2009 3:16 pm
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feeling a little down tonight- i just sent an email to my oldest & dearest friend, LG. we had an incident a few weeks ago where we had a few tense moments on the phone & he was pretty rude to me before hanging up. i sent an email saying i wont be treated that way & until you get your head out of your ass, don't call. he hasn't. hes not one that is accustomed to being told what an ass he can be at times, but we've been friends for 20 yrs so if not me, then who? i wrote to him last week saying i miss him & still love him, but haven't heard back. so i let him know tonight that he wont hear from me again until he lets me know he wants to. its just really hard because he's the only real world person that knows the side of me i show here. he understands me better than anybody i have ever known- (including ex husbands) so i think im gonna go get in the tub, prop up the leg, have a beer, & try to forget......
see ya' tomorrow. chanda
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mistake or not?
Posted:Jun 15, 2006 7:03 pm
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2008 11:16 pm
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i had a friend come over today to take me to a PT appointment , pick up the mail etc. we have always had certain things in common such as being pretty candid about having a high sex drive. she's thinking about going into the adult toy party business & we were talking about it today. i started telling her about this site & blogging & how much i like it. so when we got back to the house, i showed her the site, & my blog. she seemed pretty interested. after she left i started thinking about some of the things i said on my profile & here, & started wondering if it was a mistake. there are things on here that none of my friends around here know about me- (explanation of the dali) & now I'm sort of worried that if she does read it it may change her opinion of me. I'm still the same person i always was, but some people get a little freaked out when they find out someone they're friends with has played on their own side of the fence.

i don't really think shes the kind to stand in judgment of anyone, and if she does oh well. i am finally in a place in my life that i don't feel accountable to anyone but the one i meet when i die, so im just going to go on being me. if she reads this, she can let me know & we'll go from there. in either case, she's my friend & i have few enough of those to want to lose her.
not many people can convince me to slide my nose down a restaurant window at the people inside.
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i'm baaaack!!!!
Posted:Jun 14, 2006 8:51 pm
Last Updated:Mar 15, 2009 3:18 pm
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well here it is - i had a medial meniscus repair. which means the outer edge of the C shaped piece of cartilage in between the bones of my knee had a nick in it with a piece hanging on. they went in arthroscopicly, sewed it up & put in guitar shaped pieces of a cushiony material to help it heal. which means i can put NO weight on that leg for 6 WEEKS! of course it is the right one that means i cant even drive! i was looking forward to a week or 2 of this but 6!!! im going to lose my mind!!! whats left of it anyway.

so in between driving my crazy & reading about autism ( my niece - we suspect) i should have lots of time to be evil on here! that is, if i can stay out of the toy box long enough. what with sleeping all day after surgery, & the GORGEOUS full moon the other night, i was awake 1/2 the night & thanks to lortabs, i was feeling no pain, but there was this delicious warmth....
so BIG HUGS to all of you that stopped in to say hi! i should be back to my usual self in a day or two- but is that a good thing? ????XXXOOOXXX to all! chanda
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surgery
Posted:Jun 12, 2006 6:26 am
Last Updated:Jun 24, 2006 5:33 am
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surgery in a few hours- wish me luck! probably wont be back today. hopefully they'll give me some good drugs! hee-hee! later!
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an afternoon .... nap?
Posted:Jun 10, 2006 10:30 pm
Last Updated:Mar 9, 2011 8:55 pm
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sitting at my computer one afternoon, at school, nowhere to be for a few hours, i was here getting all hot & bothered. so i decided to indulge myself a bit....

i got out "the toy box" stripped naked- something i rarely have time to be during the day lately- & fell onto the bed wiggling in anticipation. i happened to land crossways, my head near the side, & when i rolled to my back, my head fell back over the side. of course, my first thought was this would be a good place for a stick up....

i spread my legs wide, stretching slowly as i went, relaxing, then tensing the musels. i ran my hands over my body, imagining them to be someone elses....

i rolled my nipples between my fingers gently, teasing, pulling slowly on the rings, kneading the soft flesh. i ran my hands down my belly, to the top of my thighs, pulling them apart as far as i could. i imagined His hands, gentle but firm, uncompromising, but not cruel, spreading my lips, toying with the ring there. by now i am throbbing, trying not to move or cry out, to beg Him to take me. He stands, goes around to my feet & says "dont want you having to worry about these. you'll have other things to do." as He pulls some velcro straps from under the bed, securing my ankles far apart. not enough to be painful, but leaving me no wiggle room. He slowly walks back to the other side of the bed, "how about an appetiser" as He releases His rigid cock into His hand. He stands just above my head, so i have to hang it backwards off the bed to see Him. He slowly allows me to taste, lick & suck every inch. i am so lost in the sensations in my mouth & between my legs that i dont even realize Hes put on a pair of surgical gloves until He drops another pair on my belly, & puts a bottle of edible lube next to them. before i can respond, His hands begin to explore every inch of my pussy, probing, thrusting,digging deeper until i am panting, squealing & moaning for release!

He steps away to give me a moment to compose myself & put on the gloves, then returns His cock to my mouth & i am stroking the shaft behind my mouth with one hand, the other caressing His balls, the lube dripping from them. as He slides His cock deeper & deeper into my mouth, i slide one hand around to His ass, gently probing, stroking, massaging, until He is ready, then i slide in one finger, pressing gently into that sweet spot & holding it.

His hands are all over me, one tweaking the nipple, the other slowly working fingers into my pussy. i am at His mercy, restrained by the feet, His cock holding my face,
with 2... 3... now 4 fingers inside of my swollen flesh. as i gently massage His now slippery ass, He begins to make His way to my throat, sliding His cock deeper & deeper until His balls are on my nose. He draws back enough to let me breathe, then as He plunges back in, His hand begins to pump furiously into me, my hips bucking up to meet Him. i begin to heave & moan around the cock in my throat as i come, gushing twitching writhing screaming thrashing heat. He pulls back & strokes His cock a few times before aiming it at my twitching pussy & shoots His hot load all over it. unable to stop myself, i rub it in, sweet, hot, sticky.... & suddenly i am coming again violently, bucking against my restraints.

when i am finally aware again of my surroundings, i realize He has cleaned Himself up (& wiped me off) & i am covered with a sheet. He is across the room, watching me.

"well your performance was pretty good, except for one detail. did I give you permission for that last one? thats something we will have to deal with later."

what will He do as a punishment??
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for the non-commenters(not a bitch session)
Posted:Jun 8, 2006 8:37 pm
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2008 4:42 pm
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just in case those of you that visit & read, but don't comment , didn't know, when you comment, it makes it easier to read your profile & more importantly, your blog, & comments. i usually check out the blogs & comments of those that visit me, & frequently wink at those i find interesting, in an attempt to lure them back, to make conversation. it doesn't have to be witty, or poetic or more than "good post." it will at least get you looked at.

also how do you find someone else's blog? ive tried on the page that asks for the "Handle" but it always comes back not found- any suggestions?
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small great pleasures
Posted:Jun 8, 2006 12:01 pm
Last Updated:Oct 19, 2008 11:20 pm
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what are some of the small great pleasures of life to you? little insignificant things that add a sweetness, or richness to your life?

some of my favorites:
puppy breath
an afternoon nap in a cool quiet room coffee at dawn by a campfire the velvet on a foal's nose an afternoon reading in a hammock a hug from a
seeing an old couple walk hand in hand
"spooning" with a perfect fit & feeling his breath on my neck wind in aspen trees


deep sighs.....
(thats one too)

can you tell i just had a nap? XXOOXX
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the way i like movie night......
Posted:Jun 7, 2006 8:04 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2011 11:45 am
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as for the movie, i've never been big on "chic flicks" but a few of my fav's - untamed heart (Marisa Tomei & Christian Slater) Benny & Joon (Johnny Depp & Mary Stuart Masterson- i think) 50 first dates (Drew Barrymore & Adam Sander) & last of the Mohican's.
so, if we were lying on the couch with you watching a movie in nothing but a baby doll & pj's, would you let me lay you down & snuggle in between your legs & play with your cock slowly,alternately licking & sucking playing with the head, then caressing your balls with my tongue? i love to give long, slow, unhurried head, the kind that starts when the movie does & finishes when the credits are rolling. at first your hand is absently caressing my head,neck & face, but if i get too fast or vigorous, or you don't want to come yet, you gently make a fist in my hair, close to the back of my head & pull my head away, my tongue reaching , my eyes asking to have it back in silent protest. when you are ready to come, you hold my head by the hair on both sides, gently but firmly, holding me immobile, while you thrust your cock into my mouth from below, slowly at first, then increasing in speed & tension, our eyes locked, breathing ragged, my pussy twitching, until your eyes begin to roll up, your body goes stiff, & you explode in my mouth- which sends me over the edge- squealing & moaning my body spasming sucking voraciously on your cock to extract every drop!
while you laid back to enjoy the endorphins, i would be cleaning up anything i missed with my tongue ( something i don't have to do very often) in a very leisurely fashion.

(is) "would you like me to go up & turn down the bed, Sir?"
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heres the story of this Dali......
Posted:Jun 4, 2006 9:06 pm
Last Updated:Oct 15, 2008 4:39 pm
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since i am wide awake & no one i know is blogging right now, i thought id let you all in on the significance of the dali i posted here. its a long story......
several years a go i was married & in central florida( CENTRAL PART OF HELL ) my ex was a 32 yr old tile setter by day & a drug dealer all the time. he was a manic depressive sex addict that had an 8 pk belly from fucking. he also really wanted to see me eat pussy. we had been married a year when i ran into an old friend that started partying with us.
she had slightly olive skin, very soft, thick dark hair, dark eyes,......
anyway after spending the night on our couch a few times, she started teasing me about next time shes drunk on our couch & shes out there listening to me scream & moan, shes just going to come in & join us.
so one night she did! we had it pre arranged(she & i- he was clueless), agreed on who felt comfortable with what, & the first time was so amazing, it became a routine. went to grandmas saturday afternoon,she came over & we went muddin' or dancing or had a party at home. she spent the night, & we all spent sunday drinking coffee & recovering.
one day she came to the house all excited, carrying something wrapped in brown paper, like a large picture. a salesman had come to her office selling prints, & when she saw "dream"....
she thought of us.
she is the woman lying down, helpless, awaiting what is to come, the ex & i were the tigers, pouncing on her devouring her, savoring her body.it hung in our room over the bed until the day she told me she couldn't come around any more. he was starting to scare her. he was abusive to me (part of why i left) & she couldn't take it any more. when i told him that night , first he cried the missing her out, then put his fist through the painting, then told me never to speak of her again.

i still miss her sometimes. she had the most delicious skin...XXXOOOXXX chanda
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contest idea!!!
Posted:Jun 4, 2006 6:14 pm
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2009 10:10 pm
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i have an idea for a contest- ill be back @ 10 - so stay tuned!!
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can you blog chat?
Posted:Jun 4, 2006 4:10 pm
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2009 10:10 pm
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anybody going to be on later? throw a few comments back & forth?? i see posts where the comments are only a few minutes apart. for someone like me that uses the hunt & peck method that would be cool. giggles

anyway, after about 10 the will be crashed, & momma wants to play- even if I'm alone it can be a lot of fun.
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whats a girl to do???
Posted:Jun 3, 2006 8:35 pm
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2009 10:09 pm
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well i just left the chatrooms. now i remember why i never got into them. lots of so&so has entered the room.
so here i am, savoring a banana & bowl of chocolate sauce, wondering what to do with this tingly feeling im having. ill be checking in for a while for suggestions.

SLURP!!
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