Big Toys
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Posted:Sep 14, 2009 12:31 pm
Last Updated:Nov 22, 2010 11:48 am
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So apparently I'm one of the few girls in the world who doesn't have toys to play with. I keep getting suggestions to try out my bigger toys to find out how big I'd like a guy to be. I guess I really have been pretty tame because I don't have toys - in fact, it was only recently (after some particularly hot email exchanges) that I started touching myself in order to get some relief. Before then, sex was really something I just did since I was supposed to, to make my guy happy, but I really didn't know about how much I could want it - so I've never had a desire to have toys, and it really is outside my experience.
But based on your comments I looked around online a little and am thinking about a big toy. Believe it or not that would be a big step for me. And the toy doesn't offer the same turn-on that the thought of a real-life hung guy does. I mean, so much of what is turning me on is the power this guy would have over me once he whipped out a huge cock, and the things he could make me do. I don't get weak in the knees looking at these toys, the way that I do when some of these guys tell me what they're going to do to me. And the thought of all that real man-meat in my face, on my tongue, in my mouth, spreading me open...well, that is something that a toy just can't offer. Or having a real guy know that he is making me lust after him, or making me scream and cum on his cock, or making me get on my knees for him, swallow his cum or feel it dripping out of me, or that he can make me run around and cheat on my fiancee....god these things are what make me so out of control for this fantasy.
But there are some good points about the toys. First of all, it would finally let me know what it really feels like, and would be better than what I'm getting now. Second, if and when I get up the nerve, at least I'll have had something big inside me and it might go a little easier at the beginning. And another benefit is that if my fiancee knew I had a big toy, then I would have a ready-made excuse for why I was so stretched out if I snuck off with one of you guys on the side (of course it wouldn't explain the cum dripping out of my mouth, or all my outbound texts saying "need ur big cock again!" or "u r so big!" or "miss ur monster!"  )
So I'm thinking about it. It will take some very sensitive maneuvering with the fiancee, as he has become incredibly sensitive about size lately - I think I'm inadvertently giving off signals that I might be susceptible to being taken over by a bigger guy. Maybe it's the way I make jokes like "Oh yes, I definitely want the foot-long" when we're at Subway. Maybe it's the way I'm dressing just a little sexier when I go out for wine with the girls. Anyway, I'm thinking about it...we'll see.
Still, the real thing just makes me wet.
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Pre-addicted to Big Cock
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Posted:Sep 10, 2009 10:05 am
Last Updated:Nov 7, 2011 8:48 am
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Well I've been trying very hard to be a good girl lately. I've been avoiding this site (mostly) and trying to think about other things in life besides sex, but it really is like an addiction once I've got this craving in my head. Even though I haven't taken the plunge and been broken in by a really hung guy yet, I still can't stop thinking about it, to the point where I'm so turned on and horny most of the day and can't concentrate on anything else. Even just emailing with these big guys is such a thrill, just joking around and chatting with a guy that big is in some ways more exciting and satisfying than actual sex with my fiancee. In fact, I have to get out of bed some nights and give myself some relief or else I'd never get back to sleep.
I've had some pretty vivid dreams partially based on some of the emails I've had on here. And when I wake up after one of those dreams, I'm so revved up that it's impossible to get back to sleep. In one of my favorite dreams, I'm in a room with a particularly big guy and just getting to pulling his giant cock out when I realize my fiancee is in the next room, but is locked out. As I slide down to my knees on the floor in front of this guy, my fiancee starts to try the handle on the door and ask if I'm in there. Different things happen here in my dream, but when I continue this fantasy by myself, I take my mouth off of the guy's cock long enough to yell to my fiancee that I'll be out in a second, but I'm busy right now. Then I go back to work while my fiancee keeps trying to push the door open. I'm not planning on screwing this guy while my fiancee's right there, but as I continue giving head, and the guy starts pushing my head down harder, I get hornier and hornier until I can't possibly stop myself. My fiancee is now yelling "what's wrong? are you alright?" and he can hear in my voice that something has me breathing heavily and my heart racing. But the guy just pulls me up to the couch, I straddle him and he positions me over his giant cock, and as the huge tip rubs around my vagina, I can't stop myself from gasping and moaning and even giggling as shock waves go through my body. Then I hear my fiancee get a little angry as he knows something's up from the excited sounds I'm making, but there's no way I'm turning back now. Finally the guy yells "leave her alone dude, can't you hear she's busy!" and I can't help but laugh just as he pushes up a little, spreading me open....
Anyway, you get the idea. It goes on from there, and after I get to the end and relieve myself I inevitably feel very guilty for having such a mean fantasy, but I have to admit it really does turn me on.
I wonder if it would be easier to stop thinking about it once I've had it, or will it become harder to stop. From the way I feel now, I can't imagine that once I've been that full and stretched out by a guy would make it any easier to move on.
Anyway, thanks for all the thoughts and advice guys, I still haven't made the bad girl a reality, but as you can tell I'm still failing miserably at trying to be a good girl.
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Vaginal Orgasm from Bigger Dicks?
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Posted:Aug 10, 2009 11:39 am
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2009 10:55 am
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So I've been reading girls on here talking about having a vaginal orgasm, and was wondering would a bigger guy be more likely to make a girl have one?
I think I remember having a few of these early on, I really don't have much experience with them, but it sounds like they can be more satisfying? There is a certain spot that's very deep in me, that my fiancee has hit maybe 4 or 5 times over the course of the past few years, but he has to be at exactly the right angle, pushed in as far as he can go and at his very biggest, and even then it only feels like he is grazing something that causes this intense charge that is almost painful it is so good. And as soon as he does I 'buck' involuntarily, which obviously pushes him back out and he can't really hit it again. I'm wondering if a bigger guy would be able to hit that more consistently, with more pressure and from other angles, and if this is what would send me into a vaginal orgasm.
I can imagine some of the bigger guys could really give me a better workout internally, not only from how deep they could get in, but also from how hard they could slam in and out of me. With my fiancee he can only draw out a couple of inches before he's about to fall out of me, so it seems like there's a limit on how hard we can go at it. With the extra inches some of these guys have, I bet they can really bang the shit out of a girl. 
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Easy Like Sunday Morning
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Posted:Aug 9, 2009 5:31 am
Last Updated:Nov 7, 2011 8:49 am
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Since I've been emailing with some of you guys on here, I've noticed that I get very, very horny and naughty on Sunday mornings, when getting ready for and sitting in church. Neither of us is all that religious, but we like church and the people, so I usually go on Sunday mornings. But lately it has only made me feel even more wicked. I think it's the contradiction between how I'm dressed, what I'm doing and what I'm thinking about. While I'm getting ready in my respectable, conservative clothes, doing my hair and putting on a little makeup and light perfume, and while my fiancee is getting his suit and tie on, I'm trying to look the part while my mind is racing in a way that doesn't match up. Like this morning I'm thinking what it would be like if I told my fiancee I didn't feel that well, for him to go on to sunday school, and that I would drive separately and meet him later in services. Then after he left I'd drive to some meeting spot to meet some guy I'd met on this site who had already introduced me to his big dick and had me wanting more. Maybe we'd know of a well-hidden parking lot or maybe even a small gas station that has one of those bathrooms on the side of the building. They're usually pretty messy and filthy, but that almost makes it better, even knowing how dirty it would get me and my Sunday clothes. And then we have completely dirty filthy sex for about half an hour, after which I have to try to clean myself and get to church without anyone, least of all my fiancee catching on that I've just been used by a very well-hung guy and still had the taste of the guy in my mouth as I hurry to sit down before services start.
It's the contradictions and deviousness that is turning me on so much, of course in addition to getting rocked by a really well-endowed guy. Well, it sounds like someone is almost out of the shower, so I'd better go.
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Big Cocks Make a Difference Part 2: Sucking Dick
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Posted:Aug 7, 2009 12:22 pm
Last Updated:Aug 13, 2009 6:08 am
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So one of the things that has me puzzled is why, when a big dick is involved, I want to give head so badly?
I mean it doesn't do anything for my pure physical pleasure. I guess I had always assumed that these girls who liked bigger guys only did it because physically a bigger penis would hit far more nerve endings inside the girl. But I'm finding, at least for me, that's really only a tiny part of my urges now.
I have to admit that I've been a pretty bad girlfriend as far as giving head goes. I've never liked it, did it rarely and was probably pretty bad at it, since I didn't enjoy it and didn't want to encourage my boyfriends to ask for it more. And I still really don't have any desire to give my fiancee head.
But something about these big cocks just makes me want to get on my knees in front of them, and suck and lick, and have the guy hold my head, fuck my mouth, tell me to suck his balls, anything. And I'm finding it is an intense turn-on to think about a huge cock spurting loads of cum in my mouth, and having the guy tell me to swallow it all, lick it up, etc. (and I've never swallowed for my boyfriends before, in fact I wouldn't let them cum near my mouth - I know, I know, I'm a bit of an uptight prude). It's almost like the more degrading, the better.
I'm even getting really turned on just writing about it. But the analytical part of my brain can't figure out why this would turn me on, since it really seems more for the guy's pleasure. Maybe it's some kind of animal desire to serve the guy with the biggest cock? I don't know. I know I shouldn't analyze it to death, but I'm just constantly surprised by all of the things about big-cock sex that are different and better.
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Big Cocks Make a Difference
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Posted:Aug 6, 2009 2:04 pm
Last Updated:Aug 9, 2009 5:10 am
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Even though I still don't know what it feels like to have a big dick inside me, I'm quickly discovering that a big dick changes everything about sex.
Just the emails I've had with a well-hung guy on here has been more intense, and in some ways better sex, than I've had in real life. It seems darker in some ways, but definitely more intense and urgent. It takes me to a completely different place mentally - where sex isn't just something nice I do to please my man and be close to him, it becomes something I absolutely NEED and crave very deeply.
Plus it definitely makes me want to do dirtier things, some of which I would normally consider disgusting and degrading. Why is that? And why do some of my most intense fantasies involve an aspect of humiliating my fiancee behind his back (like the way it turns me on to think of him calling me when I'm going down on a much bigger guy, so that I'm talking to my fiancee and lying to him about where I am, all while I'm on my hands and knees licking another man's huge cock), when he hasn't done anything wrong other than have a smaller penis? I'm not sure, maybe it's just animal instinct to serve a more sexually powerful male, and the perverse pleasure of being naughty drives me to want to do the wicked things behind my fiancee's back.
Maybe I think too much, and should just make it happen.
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Discovering a Craving for Big Cocks
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Posted:Aug 5, 2009 11:50 am
Last Updated:Sep 1, 2009 2:10 pm
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So I'm just kind of a breezy, happy-go-lucky, nice girl in her mid-30s. I've basically always been a good girl, with a pretty tame sex life (and haven't really been all that into sex to be honest). So it totally surprised me that when I found my fiancee looking at porn online, after I angrily told him he needed to stop, that I couldn't get the pictures of the bigger cocks that I saw out of my head. In fact, I went back online myself and looked for more, just to see what I've been missing. And the more I saw, the more I felt these urges to have sex. More specifically, to be fucked by a guy with a very big dick.
I can't explain any of this, but something has stirred in me and I can't get it out of my head. Sex with my fiancee still doesn't really get me too excited, but the thought of a bigger man having his way with me and opening up my world really has me going insane.
I'm not sure why I'm on this site, it really seems dangerous and like I'm playing with fire. Now that I'm emailing and chatting with real guys with the kind of equipment that I fantasize about, I'm worried that I'm getting closer and closer to getting out of control and giving in completely. Although I'm worried that is what is happening, at the same time, I guess I have to admit that this is what I'm hoping.
Anyway, if there are any of you who have been through this yourself, let me know whether you eventually caved in, whether it was worth it, and whether once I've had a much bigger guy, will I be satisfied with anything smaller?
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