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old story What do people tell you when you ask them about your first sexual experiences, and do they answer you at all? People are seldom sincerely talking about it, because what would happen to say: "Well, I slept with someone when I was 14 years old! What these girls certainly have not experienced is environmental support, or shoulder-strapping with the phrase "bravo". Friends at that time still do not understand what you are talking about, and you have already experienced it, and you do not care. You cry and you are ashamed, you are condemned by the closest ... This is something that has been experienced today by the twenty-year-old Maria R., who had been convicted for premature sex. Parents were printed out of public school in Belgrade for shame and transferred to private. The rest was isolated ... As she watched her peers playing in the park, she looked at older men. It attracted me, even though I knew it was sick. This feeling began very early to appear, as I watched as minor as adults in the street and even my parents - Mary's story begins, embarrassed, but again accepting her mistake. My peers were still immature, on their faces, they could not touch one of us with their fingers. I also repeatedly played with other girls in the classroom, I looked at their chest and my butt, thinking how much better they were than me - the Beograđanka says frankly. According to her story, she was brilliant brunette, large-scale material, and at that time she was given the woman's attributes. She began to make the makeup very early, hiding from the mother powder and mascara among the books. As she says, older boys aged 18 are "picking up" and it was pleasant to her. She wanted to do it. With someone. Not everyone, but had no idea who it could be. It was with Nenad - Mary discovered suddenly He was someone's friend, a random passerby, I did not see him before - he burned a cigarette nervously - It was terrible, I do not know how it happened, but after that first time I continued to I'm seeing him. Occasionally, when he wanted, when he had time. He was seducing any kind of stupidity, blasphemy and oral sex, and I was a little girl, enthusiastic, "says Maria, and with some confidence she continues the story even more. For the first time, it was not even in bed, as it should, but at Kalemegdan. Then many were hiding there, but the older couples, I was a , undefined and disoriented - she says, adding that after that, she felt as if she had done something dirtiest, and like every she dreamed about a prince. I do not know what It happened that everything went wrong. I did not want to see my life like that, but then it was what I was interested in, not to say that I was being oppressed. After a while I was crying for years - says Maria - They say that girls who have sex, later become a nymphomaniac and deviant personality. The opposite happened to me - I became very withdrawn, - she assures us. With him in a undefined relationship for a year, she tortured herself, hiding from her parents. She once thought she even fell in love - Of course he left me when all those games got tired of him, and I do not doubt he was alongside with others - not waiting for her to ask for answers. When they broke up all the contacts, she only had 14. Imagine 14 years, and already had the first sex, and falling in love and occasional sex variant. All that many girls can not tolerate even in a mature age. When we asked her how it influenced her later behavior and relationship with men, she said that luck was not a big consequence. It did not influence in terms of becoming, not giving God, depending on sex, or stumping into . After that, I did not sleep with anyone for two years, "says Maria, adding that she does not know what she had taken in that period ... She can not assign everything to puberty, and she has somehow settled down that it must have been so I really do not know. I'm guilty about everything, but I can not judge it anymore, for years I've been doing it, and it's time I started to live normally, and even to speak normally about it, as now - crying genuinely tells Maria believing that this confession can help other girls who think about sex at such an early age Now living separately from their own, their roads have long gone in different directions. They are hearing and visiting them, but life has long since been able to imagine them. She is sorry for her mother, and her father does not want to see her. She works as a tattoo master, and she is doing well for her right now. There is no boyfriend, not because of the trauma of the past, because she has overcome it, but because she has not found a person with whom she can without fear be embarked on what we would call "love". An old story that can influence someone not to change the way of life ......... |
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