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Another one bites the dust ... ...
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Another one bites the dust ... ... For some reason or another I have become very reflective whenever my birthday rolls around ... ... Well it happened again - last Wednesday was the Big Day; and I do not know whether to call my current mood reflective, nostalgic, or melancholy ... but it is the way it is ... ... Have you ever had a year that just did not go right .. ? couple of years ..? decade ..? lol - No things are not that bad - but You do begin to wonder Where it goes, Why do We do What We do, and What is the point of it all. I should be as happy as a pig in a mud wallow ... I am educated, have a decent career, a good and respectable family ... but at times it seems like I am always playing catch up or living my life for someone else ... ... I see people I grew up with, went to school with and so forth who seem to be living so much better than I ... ... I know they never committed a chunk of their youth to wear their nations uniform ... I know they never went to College and then Grad School ... but damn - When am I finally going to have all the experience, the effort, the sacrifice pay-off .?.?.? As I read back over what I have written it seems like I am being a whinny, self entitled bee-aa-tch ... but It just happens to be how I feel right now, and the one place where I have always been able to say exactly what I am feeling and thinking has been Couples Dating - even when I am bitching about the ever changing standard of service (I maybe should have said decreasing level of service .. lol - but I am trying not to be negative !!). I had always thought that by now I would have a big operation and teaching the latest and greatest at the local college ... ... I'm sure now if that will ever happen or if it is a form of delayed gratification ... ... lol !! I guess that We all have things that fall into the .. Would'a .. Could'a .. Should'a .. categories ... Ohhh well - It is what it is ... I think I finally fully appreciate how my Blogging Friend Zoe feels ... I had always empathized and thought I understood - but I do not believe I ever felt the true depth of what she was writing and feeling - I think I do now ... Zoe if You read this - I love Ya Babe ... simply because You have been honest with your inner self and at least have tried to do something about it ... ... I have hung around Couples Dating for sometime now and have made some fun friends - OK as good a friend as you can make when you have only interacted online and live 500 to a 1,000 miles apart ... but still friends nonetheless, and have always enjoyed my time and the women here ... but You get to a point where something has to give ... talk is talk and I think it is time for action ... ... I guess it is time to follow my own advice and either - Lead..., Follow..., or Get out of the Damn Way .!.!.! I have been pretty open about what I am searching for ... If something strikes your fancy, or if You have a question ... Drop me a note on the Blog and strike up a conversation and We can see where it leads .. .. Range Bull From the Gold Country of Northern California's Sierra Nevada Mountains, Range Bull |
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On no!!! We missed your big Birthday.. Happy belated Birthday my dear friend.. hugsssssssssssssss V   Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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