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Family Matters, pt 7 (an erotic story)
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Family Matters, pt 7 (an erotic story) Charley drove me home, and pulled in the driveway. “You want me to come in?” he asked. “Um, no, not right now. I just need a minute by myself, ok? Time to think, and all…” “Okay, no problem. I’ll be here, take your time.” “Thanks, Charley.” I said,<b> smiling </font></b>at him, and then I went in the house. My life with Todd, the love we share, was very evident the moment I stepped inside. The pictures on the wall were from our wedding. The flowers he gave me after we had a little tiff the previous week still sat in the windowsill, curling at the edges now, but still lovely. Upstairs, the computer desk I’d all but forced him to buy me, insisting that I needed more desk space. He’d given in without much fight, he’d do anything for me. I was reminded again of what I was risking starting anything with Charley. I’m truly in love with Todd, totally and completely. He is a wonderful, amazing man, and I never wanted to do anything to hurt him, and yet I have. Apart from the pain that my actions could potentially cause him, I’m messing around with his brother, which throws a whole other wrench into the cog. This could screw up their relationship, even their entire family! How could I be so stupid?? And yet, here I was, walking into the bedroom, packing some clothes into a bag. I told myself that this was just two grown people spending time together, not having sex or anything. I told myself that we’d just keep it platonic all week, and work this whole mess out. I kept telling myself this, hoping that on some level I’d actually start to believe it. After I’d packed, I sat on the bed for a few minutes, trying to think about what was missing in my relationship with Todd that would make me desire anything with Charley. Thinking back over the events of the past couple of days, about what exactly turned me on the most about Charley, I had an idea. Maybe what I like so much about Charley is his ability to lose control, his passion. Todd has this astoundingly, frustratingly high level of self-control. He very rarely looses control in the bedroom. I can do everything I know of to seduce him beyond reason, and it never works. Of course, he turns around and sends me into the stratosphere, which is really awesome, but I’d like to be able to return the favor once in awhile. I realized that I miss being able to truly please my lover. Being the sole person responsible for bringing them pleasure beyond belief. I sensed that I could do that with Charley. It would be very easy, in fact, and very enjoyable. Five years of experience had taught me that it was pretty much a lost cause with Todd. Not that I didn’t love our sex life. I did, and I was very satisfied, but something was missing, always had been. I guessed that I was searching for that experience. Like I said before, I love to flirt ‒ to be granted the power to tease, to chase, to seduce, to please…its like a wonderfully addicting drug to me, and I guess I’ve been jonesing for it for quite a long time. I figured that maybe if I could just experience it once, get that rush, I’d be able to get it out of my system and go back to my perfectly satisfying life with Todd. Well, it sounded good in theory! So, mollified, I left the house and rejoined Charley in the truck. We went to breakfast at a little Mom & Pop diner outside of town. The food was greasy and kind of bland, but we enjoyed being together, talking and laughing, the tension of the previous night replaced with a newfound friendship, and something deeper, more, that we weren’t quite ready to discuss. We kept the topics light, avoided talk of family and relationships. When the check came and it was time to leave, we paused, feeling awkward with each other for the first time that morning. We both knew that we were preparing to go back to the farm and spend an entire week together, no work, no family, no husbands or brothers, just us. The idea scared us more than a little. We both knew how hard it would be to avoid any sexual contact, nearly impossible. I think we both understood that by going home together, we were agreeing that we would almost definitely wind up making love. As exciting as that prospect was, it was even more frightening for what we might be messing up by going through with it. I must have started to look really nervous, because Charley said, “Remember, no expectations, no disappointments, right, Sunny?” “Right.” I said, not feeling much better about the whole deal. The ride back to the farm was nerve-wracking. I couldn’t stop fidgeting, until Charley took my hand in his and gave it a squeeze. I calmed down instantly. Then we just drove, and enjoyed each other’s company in silence. I always feel refreshed by coming out to the farm. I think its all the clean country air, all the trees and nature around. Its so peaceful, and it has a wonderfully calming effect on me. Whatever else happened, I knew I would enjoy this entire week in the country. It was such a treat. I was thankful to Charley for offering, and to Todd for agreeing. Of course, that thought brought a fresh wave of guilt, because I was pretty damn sure that Todd would NOT agree to my being out here alone with his brother for an entire week if he had any clue what had happened between us the previous night. Reminding myself that Charley and I had not so much as glanced at each other sideways since our encounter in the kitchen this morning, I was able to placate my conscience a bit. Maybe this really would work, this totally platonic thing. Feeling somewhat better, I got my bag out of the back and went on into the house as Charley held the door for me. “Why don’t you go put your things away upstairs, and then we can talk for awhile, okay?” “Yeah, okay. I’ll be down in a few minutes, then.” I replied, smiling, as I headed upstairs. When I came back down, Charley had fixed us some iced tea and was sitting on the porch swing. I walked out to join him. He handed me a glass and I sat down next to him, looking out at the amazing view. The front porch of Charley’s cabin overlooks this gorgeous valley. All you can see for miles around are trees and grass. There are no other houses in sight, no telephone or utility poles, no concrete. At dusk, you can sit on the porch and watch the deer playing in the clearing. At night, you can hear the owls and the occasional coyote. You can see every star in the sky, with no lights to interfere, and just the treetops to frame your view. You can totally forget that the world aside from yourself and whoever you are with even exists when you’re in a place like that. You start to believe that the city doesn’t exist, there are no cars, no trains, no sirens. There are no demanding bosses or annoying neighbors…or loving, trusting husbands. I must have sat there staring into nothing for a long time, because Charley said, “Penny for your thoughts?” “They’re not worth that much.” I replied guiltily. “Hey now, stop that. I told you, remember? I don’t have any expectations about this week, other than for us to talk and work this out.” “Yeah, well, maybe I don’t see things quite that way. Maybe I’m being a little more realistic and admitting to myself that something is going to happen because we both want it to and we’re both here, and maybe I don’t know how to deal with that right now.” I said. Charley sighed, took a long drink of his tea, and stared out at the valley. Now it was his turn to be silent for awhile. “Charley, I just don’t know what to think about all this. I’m so confused…I mean, I love Todd with all my heart, and I would never want to hurt him, but here I am. I’ve always been attracted to you, always fantasized about it, I guess even always wanted it to happen, maybe even always…had…feelings…for you, I don’t know. But how can that be? I can’t reconcile the two things…how can I love Todd, and still feel so much for you? How can I love two men? How can I love two brothers????” “….You love me??” Charley asked, sounding pleasantly surprised “Just…don’t, okay? Don’t gloat, and don’t tease out semantics right now, I just can’t go there, okay?” I said warningly. “Okay, I won’t…but you should know, I love you, too.” “Damnit, Charley!! I said don’t! Why d  "We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are." ] |
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6/23/2007 5:30 am |
that was very hot and erotic.
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